Cling to Innocence

My whole life feels like a midlife crisis

confusing and frustrating

slave to my lazy optimism

I can sit and wait for months

wondering

when life will change

when it will move me

knowing it will

eventually

Occasionally inspired

I lead a small charge

hoping to see a glimpse

of my destiny

yet looking back

for approval

attention

affirmation

I cling to what innocence I have left

and struggle with my responsibility